Hey Everyone,

I was going to update my myspace, but the stupid site is down on maintenance so I guess I'll update this one. At my last post I kind of figured out who reads this thing still. Apparently not many, and especially not many from K.H.S., but I guess that's alright. Who cares, if I"m not popular. I know I don't. I'm not a lot of things and I've just started to realize that. First I realized that I'm not really smart. When I look at those around me, I'm just like woah. Second, I realized that I'm not at all popular in any sort of way, because I"m not rich or funny, so I guess there goes that catergory. Finally, I realizeed (well I kind of new this already) I'm not good looking, but u see that's the first step to getting better is realizing your faults, and as u can see I have plenty and then some....So, things are going good with Brittany. We're having a great relationship. Although, no reliationship would be good unless it had it's own set of problems. Our relationship has a few, but I think we'll work through them. Our 3 Month Anniversary is in one week. Yay! This is my longest relationship that Ive ever been in....Then there's a lot going on with Julia, but aftr talking to her on the phone last night, she seemes happy, whether it was because she was making brownies, or because she was thinking about Gabe I don't know, but she was happy, and that's nice to see for a change. I've been thinking a lot lately, mainly about academics and things, and I was kind of thinking of an idea for my I.B. Essay for my senior year.. I'm "majoring" in music for my IB diploma thing (we have to speicalize in something and I picked music) and I was thinking about a new type of key.. you know how theres major and minor, I was thinking duet. I'm not going to give out details, beause I know theres some composer out there looking to make something new, but that's my idea. What I'm suggesting is that keys can not only be major or minor, because a key can also have two parts, the pitch part, and the rhythm part. The rhythm part should reflect the pitch, but pitch should be independent from the rhythm. I'm also proposing that a chord of triads would not be made of do me so me do or C E G E C, the chord would me made of C--E-G-E--C . I'm not oging to put all of what I"m thinking on here, but I've just had a lot of time lately...This week is finals, yay. There really easy so far, which scares me. BEcause after I took my science final, I was like yes that was easy, then I checked my grade and I got a 60, but that's okay cause I still have an 84 in the class. I'm taking math today and IBIE, I'll probably study for IBIE on the bus, and algebra 30 minutes befor I takte the test. I'm going to go, so i'll ttyl (Leave some comments)

Aaron

Hey Everyone,

This is going to be short cause I've got like 8 minutes until I've got to finish getting ready for school. SO what's going on with u? not much over here. I've been going through a lot but I'm starting to feel a little bit happier. Just a little, and maybe, just maybe will this thing clear up. I'm sure some of u folks that I know from Camp Eagle, if u still read this, are probbably confused. I miss u Marissa!!!! See Marissa if u were here, maybe I could have talked to u, but no u just had to go on a move!!!!! lol,\

Gosh Marissa, u just

had to move, lol

I'm figuring that u haven't read this in awhile so maybe that will get your attention, lol. I've been having a lot problems and now one of my friends has told me that they have become a cutter. This makes me so sad, because I know how they feel and it's the worse feeling possible. I'm not going to say this person's name, because I know this person will tell someone soon, Isn't that right ***** you are going to tell someone soon! *lighter subject* I have finals this week. How exciting. I guess it might have helped if I paid attention in class in science, but that class is pretty boring, well not the class but the work. Who really cares what a protist is? WHen in my life am I going to have to know what meiosis and mitosis cells are? So u get the point. Then theres math, that final is going to be hard! I fail like every test in that class. I don't know what still keeps me a float in that class, but I"m passing with a b. Did u ever notice that when I mean to type ' I type " it's probably because I type pretty fast and it's always after a capital I and I haven't let go of the shift key yet as I'm typing it so it comes out " and I'm just too lazy to erase it. Well I'm going to go, but I'll talk to ya later.

Aaron

Hey Everyone,

I am soo bored right now. We don't have school today and I'm just sitting in my bed playing on my laptop. So what else is there to do? I'm sure I won't do much throughout the whole day. I don't have any homework and theres not much else I can do. So I'll probably write notes to people. :) yay, fun. Anyways, can U tell I"m hyper? I get really hyper in cold weather. That reminds me of Julia yesterday in school, lol, she was bouncing. Brittany invited me to go with her, her mom, and Davis when they go to Dallas to drop Brittany off at the airport. What we would do is drive down to Dallas on Friday, spend the night at a hotel, and then take Brittany to the plane on saturday. I'd really like to go, but my mom says that I can't unless CPS ends their investigation by Friday. I'm not so sure that can happen, but I hope it does that way I can go. Although it would be an awkward ride home (considering the facts that I'll be riding home with Brittany's mom and Davis) I'd stil like to go...RIght now I'm watching this special on John Lennon, you know from the beatles. It's kind of weird. THe poor guy got murdered. If I have to die, I'd like to die of old age. Theres a lot of stuff going on right now. If u don't know then you probably will never know, but one thing is for sure, my life will never be the same. (In case u were wondering, I'm not talking about my previous depression) There are still somethings that my father doesn't understand and I don't think he ever will, because every time we almost have a conversation he puts in some kind of coment that just makes me shut out any chance of telling him something. So yeah, u understand. Then theres also some very large issues that are omniscicent right now. I talked to Ashley about them and I think she's starting to realize the magnitude of this event. I'm still not quite sure that it has hit Julia yet. I can't really put much details about why on here, because then u could probably figure it out. But Julia (yes I'm talking to u Julia, I know you'll be reading this soon) I need u to not tell anyone anything anymore. This issue is more than me and my bro, now it's my sis. So please just don't say anything. Now I'm watching something about this girl who is an alcohol and drug addict. Apparently it works cause now she's not an addict. How cool is that. It's one of those stories that while ur watching, makes u get teary eyed. I'm going to go cause it's getting later and I want to eat Breakfast. So I'll talk to ya later.

Aaron

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Hello Dear world,

what's going on with u? Happy Turkey Day!!!!!!!! It's not all that happy for me, but that's okay. I've been doing homework ever since 7:00 this morning. I really don't feel like doing it. I did my geo project and now I"m doing my vocabulary for science! Exciting I know, but I'm getting a little tired of it cause none of these words are even online. Ugh! Yesterday was my anniversary. Brittany and I didn't do anything, but I called her and said Happy Anniversary. I also gave her my word on something and I realize that the hardest part is going to be, that I need to honor my word and fulfil my promise, but I know Julia and Ashley are going to be watching my ever move and maybe after awhile I'll be able to go to the bathroom by myself (if you don't know what Im talking about, then just laugh and keep reading) maybe I'll also get my ID back. Uggh u julia. Uggh u. I want it back Monday! Does anyone here know what a homologous structure is? Apparently my dictionary and the internet doesn't know what it is. I think I"m just gonna say it's somehting with one structure, cause homo means one and structure means structure. So what if it's a stretch. :) On Tomorrow, I'm going black Friday shopping. I was just wondering, how many of yall have heard of  black Friday. I talked to Ashley and she didn't know what that was. She thought it was called early-bird-specials. Maybe that's just a Texan thing, but give me some feedback. Then on Saturday, I'm going to Brittany's house for some family fun. I think we're gonna be playing games and things. I wonder what we'll be playing. I'll just have to make sure I lose. No, I know what ur thinking, I'm not throwing the game to make Brittnay feel good, lol, I"m simply throwing out my stupider side, but Shh don't tell Brittany. I really need to either find someone who has a digital camera that I can take a few pics and load on here, or I need to find my digital camera cord Cause I have a digital camera I simply don't have the cord to load it up on the computer. How great is that! Yeah, real great! I dont' know if u can tell, but homework isn't all that exciting. I think we're eating Thanksgiving dinner in an Hour. I haven't had lunch, or breakfast, so I"m kind of hungry. But not too hungry, cause normally I"m not hungry anyways. I'm starting to get passed the depression, but the anorexia problem is still prevalent. I have a hard time looking at myself at night. Everyone tells me oh Aaron You're not fat. I'd love to be like u, or I"m fatter than u are! but that doesn't help me at all. I still think I'm fat. I guess it's part of my low self-esteem that I definitely have, but maybe the psychiatrist will help. I'm going Tuesday, and I am so nervous about it. My parents haven't really talked much about the problem.  I don't know how they feel. Maybe they think like Katie, and think that I'm just doing this to get attention. That hurts me the most. That one of my old best friends doesn't even belive me, or have concern for me! *sigh* Anyways, I"m going to be happier now. I'm going to try and I've started my path to self-discovery. Yes, It's very hard for me! I think I"m going to let you go, you've wasted enough tiem reading this, but since ur reading this u need to leave me some comments k? and  here's my myspace link http://www.myspace.com/lostandinsane doesn't that fit me real well. Lost and insane. We all new I was insane!!!! Go check that out and leave me some comments.

Adios (I Luv My Guamanian Girl)

Aaron

Hey Everyone,

It's amazing how life can be so weird. On my last weblog entry I was happy. Now, I've had another "incident" Isn't life so opposite. I am quite depressed now. Apparently I have manic depression. I'm going to go, because I'm really distracted right now and it's hard to write.

Aaron